So today’s blogmas post is going to be short and sweet but is absolutely needed. As I’m sure you’re aware this weekend we are finally putting on our production of ‘Shrek the Pantomime’ and I’m lucky enough to have Jordan and Ebony staying with us for the week.
I have been so nervous about the show. I think it’s partly because I was on production team last year so haven’t been on stage for ages. I also get realllllyy nervous, I don’t know what it is but my mind says I’m fine but my body disgarees – I can literally see my hand shaking when I’m holding the microphone for my song. I feel like my nerves mean I never do myself justice. Along with this, I am an alto (mezzo soprano at a push) and ‘This is Me’ literally has me trying to reach notes and do trills that are up in the heavens.
I honestly had the potential to crumble this week. I could feel the anxiety building everyday but as soon as Eb and Jord arrived the support and encouragement they have given has dragged me through. They have been at every rehearsal, giving me advice and just acting like the proudest people on the planet whenever I walk out on stage. I don’t want this to sound like I need my ego stroked or anything because that’s generally not what it is. It honestly makes me feel so loved and like I am actually capable of being good.
I was also so lucky to have so many of my other besties in the audience with their partners. Nikkii and Lydia came all the way down to see the show and just seeing them and their reaction earlier was everything I could have wished for and more. I almost felt famous with the amount of snapchats I was tagged in from proud friends in the audience. I honestly just can’t express how thankful I am for all their love and support. I miss them so, so much.
I feel like I am repeating myself now, but the basic message of this blog is that I have the best friends in the world and I would be lost without them all.