I am hoping that writing this post will give me some closure on what I consider the worst year of life. It’s frustrating because this year I have achieved some many amazing things but I feel like the negative experiences continuously overshadow the good. However, I am also writing this to celebrate my achievements and pave the way for what I know is going to be an amazing 2020.
I know all the twitter memes will agree, but I feel like the start of 2019 and the end were two completely different years, so here’s a monthly break down of the triumphs and trials of 2019.
Probably the most significant part of this month was celebrating my 21st birthday. I had been looking forward to this ‘big birthday’ for forever and it did not disappoint. From a theatre trip to London with my best pals to the most perfect celebrations with my family and Alex. This was the perfect way to start the new year in style!
We also cast The Wedding Singer and were so excited to get started on our final semester in Loco.
February – April
I’m going to call this time the lost months. This is where everything went wrong and honestly I am surprised I survived it. I know to those who weren’t there this must sound so overdramatic but I’m always as honest as I can be on this blog so future me can reflect and remember what I have experienced.
In short the suspension of Loco nearly killed me. The pressure, the stress, the upset and heart ache I experienced in these months still effects me if I let it. The fact that a group of spiteful girls decided to make up so many momentous lies and those in positions of power treated us so poorly and maliciously haunts me. We were persecuted for speaking to our friends, for welcoming the mentally ill into our society, for socialising, for working ourselves to the bone to make the experiences of those in the society the most rewarding they could be all based on lies and hidden agendas. In the end all the lies were revealed but unfortunately the damage was done. I’m not going to dwell on this any further and I am so glad my ties are cut from the toxic people who collectively destroyed something so meaningful and special. Future Meg be proud that you survived this and if my committee are reading this thank you for pulling me through and steering the ship through shark infested waters with me.
May was the month that I handed in my dissertation and the end of degree was insight! At the time, this was the biggest and most difficult piece of work I had ever completed and I am still so, so proud of it.
May also saw something good come out of the suspension as we rose above the bullshit and still managed to put on a fantastic show of ‘The Wedding Singer” in four weeks. Despite one of the main culprits remaining in her lead role, we all pulled together (Alex and I even had to take on lead roles to make it happen) and smashed our shows proving that good always overcomes evil.
Alex and I celebrated 6 years together and stronger than ever. I love this man with my whole heart and I cannot wait to see what 2020 has in store for us. We celebrated 6 years by going to see Ben Platt in London.
June was also the month I went on my first holiday with friends to visit Ebony in Devon and we had a blast (despite the whole ankle debacle).
July saw us officially move from Worcester back to our hometown of Abergavenny to start the next chapter of our lives. By this point I also new that I had achieve a 2:1 in my degree so everything seemed good again in life. I said goodbye to my amazing job as a Wellbeing Champion and off we went. I also achieved the Worcester Award Gold and was awarded Outstanding Overall Achievement for the Class of 2019.
On the 5th August I started my first job out of uni as a Support and Advocacy Worker for West Mercia Women’s Aid. This was the moment I started to no longer feel like an undergraduate student and more like a fully fledged adult! I started commuting from Abergavenny to Hereford, started earning a salary and utilising my degree in the best way. 5 months later I am now working almost full time and loving every minute of my time here.
We also visited FriendsFest which is something I had wanted to do forever and thoroughly enjoyed.
September saw me enrol on the MSc Clinical Psychology course at the University of South Wales as a part time student and since then I have completed my first semester! I have met the best group of gals who I am so glad I can share this experience with and am working harder academically than ever before. I am now ever a research assistant and got back my a merit for my first ever masters assessment grade!
October was the month that I found out I had been cast as Princess Jasmine in Abergavenny Pantomime Company’s production of Aladdin! After auditioning for principle girl since I was 15 and being unsuccessful this means the world to me and it feels so good to be back performing with this company.
November was a biggy as this was graduation month. It felt like it took forever to come around but being able to graduate with my boyfriend and friends with my family watching was the best feeling in the world. It is such a huge achievement that I have an Upper Second Class Psychology Degree with Honours under my belt and it helped me say goodbye to my Worcester chapter once and for all. Overall, university was the best three years of my life and I will always remember the amazing times I had and the amazing people I have met.
We also had a theatre filled weekend in Milton Keynes to kick off the festivities with some of my besties.
December saw a dip in my mood as I was so stressed and snowed under with the pressure of a masters degree and full time work. However, it ended with the best Christmas ever and Alex finding out that a trip to Walt Disney World and a Disney Cruise to the Bahamas will be part of our 2020.
We also had another amazing London trip and I got to spend some quality time with my loved ones over the festive period.
I know everyone says it, but I truly believe that 2020 will be a great year for me. I don’t know whether it’s the start of a new decade or just because I found parts of 2019 so tough but I am excited to find out what’s in store.
What’s your stand out memory from 2019?